Sadness, and Giving In
Posted on Tue January 12, 2010 in Depression
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Today I was sad.
The sadness has been growing, actually, since the new year. There's a
huge confluence of events to bring it on: dissatisfaction at work, health issues
and questions, seasonality, and introspection about the future.
Today I gave in to it. I felt it building, pressure behind my eyes, and an
inability to focus on anything but unhappiness. I was trying to hold back and
not show my sadness to my husband, not wanting to share the pain. But when he
picked me up from the train today, I couldn't hold it in, and I rambled about my
sadness. And I found myself crying, and it felt SO GOOD.
By the
end of it, the pressure from behind the eyes was gone. He had shared some
seasonal sadness too. We came home and found our dear friend Dr. D, who just
happens to be a psychiatrist, stopping by on his way home.
Dr. D
told me the best advice: this will pass. I have felt this sadness before, and
it has always passed.
And just having my mini-breakdown was nearly
miraculous. You have to give in to the mini-breakdowns to avoid the major
breakdowns.
Hug your friends and family close, be good to yourself,
and let yourself have a good cry if you need to.
Dr. D's orders.
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stephwebb98 says:
on January 13, 2010 at 07:29 AM
I think it's nice to also remember that you're never alone when you feel that way - and that it's okay to be sad sometimes. We've all been there, and while it stinks at the time, you have to have the 'lows' to appreciate the 'highs'.
Talesa says:
on January 13, 2010 at 09:41 AM
I think it's perfectly normal to break down and cry every now and then. Life is busy and stressful, and we all have a threshold. I agree that it definitely feels good to have a good cry now and then. Hope your days are looking brighter, Sandra.
Anita says:
on January 13, 2010 at 09:49 AM
Sandra, we all do this and it feels good dammit! you don't know how many times I've broken down to myself while alone. Life can really build up on you and it's nice to just cry the hell out of it! sounds like time for a mini vacation?
babydust says:
on January 13, 2010 at 10:47 AM
I have one of these every month for over a year, the worst is sometimes, I don't even know why I'm breaking down, I just want to cry and let it out but if someone asked me why, I couldn't even pinpoint it.
stacy says:
on February 23, 2010 at 04:41 PM
Oh, my dear, I haven't been checking in with your journal in a while and it breaks my heart to see that you've been suffering. I'm so sorry. Sometimes, a good cry is good for the soul. I know I've been doing a lot of that lately, myself. I send you hugs.